ALways Been Good at

Always been good at knowing what I don't want.
but happenstance
came upon something I did want
that may or may not belong to someone else
Problem? not really. I am not the type to cross those lines.

actually just curious about the implications that there's "something" that I know I want
no more maybe melancholy, uh I dunno, let me think about it. I just know. thats cool! thats super cool and it's not weird and not nervous it just is and that's weird. Well maybe for now I don't get what I want and for some reason I'm not at odds and ends about it, because it feels right to want that and have to wait. not sure. this is vague. im a silly idiot. please dont read

kiln is getting worked on today. this process takes a long longer than I prefer to even consider as a time frame. What I mean is this has taken fucking forever and that's a long time!!

hopefully, I will get a clear idea of how much of a dunce I am at wiring and exponentially improve my skills.

Does anyone read this? I hope not look at that awful picture. I should be ashamed to post it. all broken and stuff so sad like a puppy with a broken leg in a puddle. my imaginations is so morbid and cute.

anywho Im off to the other blog. SEE YA SOON!

Travelling

I have decided to travel more. HOW?
work all over the world perhaps....gotta get out and meet every fucking body. plus i've some interesting people that I would love to see again.

thinking always with the thinking..........STOP !
haha
well anywhoo was just watching some Dexter sinister word art and boy do I love it when people use the word entropy I swear it gets me every time. one of my favorite subjects, ordered chaos anyone?  thats what I fell like I am, ORDERED CHAOS!

well it is time to go to bed again and I am alive with thought, working on these jewelry projects and decided to incorporate wood and plastic with some glass things I have been fiddling with. on the verge of some phenomenally  beautiful designs. Consider the juxtapositions of wood and glass. hard and the soft working together like some well rounded yin yang of jewelry. mouth watering, i know.
at some point going to incorporate metallics........ just force of habit it's in my nature. MMM Shiny fire objects. it's a wonder why I hate glitter so much.

STUFFING

Mad love for Minaj's - Right by my side. LOL. not sure i like it but that shit is catchy.

catchy like crabs gotta scratch that itch.

Went the the International Contemporary Furniture Fair today. HELLA AWESOME. Let me just say WOW! and the javits center what a huge fucking space. I have to say i love the 3-d printed jewelry that attaches piece by piece to create any type pf structure that one might want. I'm not a big furniture buff but Virginia Tech was creating some wonderfully clever window screenings out of spring steel that would make some of the most wonderful blinds anyone has ever seen. I hope it catches on, those students were so on the money.

i never forgot about dre

well it is late and time to rest. i want to stay up lately though I want to use all my time ALL THE TIME> ALL OF IT IS valuable and fleeting.

mothers day is over. odd emotions struck today i called my mo, twice to make sure she knew she was loved.

trying not to sweat the small stuff just let it work out and get shit done.

I went to the frieze art fair and it was amazing. I went to chelsea last thursday and it was odd some young women mean mugged me and then I realized that next time I go i should wear sunglasses so people cant see me.

CHanges are to come soon. pictures and changes. :)

life is so interesting around here. I'm meeting some amazing people and gaining new perspectives on the challenges and happening s of being a human being.

one thing is for sure it is not easy for me and that's okay. I have faith i will figure it out because like some sort of mad scientist it is all I can thing about. HOW TO? WHEN ? whats best? well i will relax in my thoughts now and go to bed wake up work and come to my conclusions on the subway

Drive.

SO someone should drive me to the scrapyard in exchange for......... something cool?

ahh i dont know, gas and uh something cool.

I will make a to do list.
1.troubleshoot welder.
2. Call Jomar
3. make price list.
4. clean room again.
5. finally check work e-mail.
6. clean up supply closet.
7. take pictures
8. Publish and use Visual resume.

write actual blog entry?
buy candy
eat candy
SLEEP

Failure for the Future. positivism? a must today. HAHA

UH SO I BROKE MY KILN..

it kind of exploded and
all of this wonderfully black smoke was spewing out of the control box last Wednesday night.

Needless to say I was wonderfully sad about all of this, but well I am going to learn how to fix many many kiln problems. Many more that is, o gee I am running out of patience with patience.

who knows maybe I will only have to replace the burned out wires. MAYBE I WILL CRY? doubtful however anything could happen. ANYTHING. what a world..... dot dot dot dot
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anywhoowhatsit

thats right it's a useless transitional word and I don't care. I LIKE USELESS TRANSITIONS. they give me time to think more before I speak or time to not put my foot in my mouth, as much.

also felt....I got my hands on a whole bunch of felt and I HAVE BEEN MAKING STUFF> the non functional kind of stuff. you know what I mean, I dont have to say it, okay okay okay okay I will say it, stop pressuring me I dont like pressure. Who am I kidding.

MOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

anywhoo HAHA

I have been making sculpture. SHHH dont tell anyone. You have no right. im not gonna show anyone yet. it's a secret like something great that you want no one else to have.

yesterday I was told some odd yet nice things, my neighbor has this pianter from Peru staying with us and he told me I was like an orchid that hadnt bloomed yet which was semi nice. but you know the i'm like a seed in dirt part was annoying. i mean well whatever. haha it was semi nice.
whoziewatsit.