whooo

been pretty productive lately...

this new  computer is really helping my work it out!

my etsy is better. photoshop. camera. ceramics,.....,........



BRONZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

so good

got to caste some bronze

it is going to be a wonderful sculpture!

Saturday

Tomorrow is the bronze  pour.

I will be secretly casting a piece

i am totally stoked.

YAY

so much to do.

lately i feel so WOOOOOOOOO

anyways. see you at the pour?

:)

Letter to an addict (thought i would write this down before throwing away the crumpled paper on my floor.) written summer 2012

Also, the thing is

          If you get all cokey again.

I have to move and start over AGAIN.
                                     
                                         this would suck forever, forever is always and all my friends would be like. BLAH BLAH. Lecture. Don't take risks, you're stupid. DUH

This = "too big to fail"

But also. I would be disappointed for like a year. Cuz i would have a ton of weird sadness n stuff.

                       Also you would never every see me again.
                                     I would have to like be someone else and not wear my swimsuit all day and eat all candy. :(

Thunder clouds would form above my heard and lighting would crash into my soul. Hatred for humanity would fill my heart and spew on the innocent.

God would deem me Satan and I would ruin his creations

My presence would wilt all flowers.
     your nose will fall off
           it is bad for your heart
               your life
                 your soul
            ..................lastly, leastly
        your business

also
    bad for your monkey business

I could lecture you all day, SEE?

it makes me worry, I care
dont die

DONT DIE SLOW SAD ADDICT DEATH. DONT O.D.

DO LIVE, LOVE,  TRY, PLEASE!

please. please. pleasey. sadz. pleasey, thanksies

~beca


..........totally ended up moving.

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Excerpt from Summer 2010: Robot Emotions

found this thought it was interesting, something i wrote 2 years ago:

Robot Emotions

Love wasnt enough in this situation, but I hold hope for future affairs to bear loyal, committed and productive results.

I annoy my friends because I couldnt get over my break-up fast enough.

Sympathy=Temporary

nobody likes that broken hearted girl.

I lost a wind

I won in the end.

For now I am a fraction of myself. I am one with that fraction.

Burt Bacharach sing to me baby. I was happy today and ate more. Maybe my pants will fit soon.

Drug talk

I really get annoyed when all someone will talk about is their drug use.

I get it you tried whatever and had an experience that was like whatever but does it have to be the subject of every single conversation that you have? SEriously is that all that you live for?

your every day?

I refuse to believe

there has to be better things.

this generation this culture is so fucked sometimes.

I am so dissappointed to see peoples lives rules by substances. wake up pill, fell okay pill, feel good pill, relax another pill, sleep another pill, toke, a sniff, a clip, a dip. STOP

JUST FUCKING STOP

Erlenmeyer Flask

To miss someone you barely know

 a stern confusion

to know but not know why

 I just cant see how it all makes sense

I just wish you felt the same

then this would make some semblance of reason

because I feel so strongly

because it was so nice to be in your presence

it felt so natural in the most amazing of ways

like the flavor of strawberry Milk Candy from china town

something I wish I had known always of which I quickly became accustomed to

thats you, to me.