Letter to an addict (thought i would write this down before throwing away the crumpled paper on my floor.) written summer 2012

Also, the thing is

          If you get all cokey again.

I have to move and start over AGAIN.
                                     
                                         this would suck forever, forever is always and all my friends would be like. BLAH BLAH. Lecture. Don't take risks, you're stupid. DUH

This = "too big to fail"

But also. I would be disappointed for like a year. Cuz i would have a ton of weird sadness n stuff.

                       Also you would never every see me again.
                                     I would have to like be someone else and not wear my swimsuit all day and eat all candy. :(

Thunder clouds would form above my heard and lighting would crash into my soul. Hatred for humanity would fill my heart and spew on the innocent.

God would deem me Satan and I would ruin his creations

My presence would wilt all flowers.
     your nose will fall off
           it is bad for your heart
               your life
                 your soul
            ..................lastly, leastly
        your business

also
    bad for your monkey business

I could lecture you all day, SEE?

it makes me worry, I care
dont die

DONT DIE SLOW SAD ADDICT DEATH. DONT O.D.

DO LIVE, LOVE,  TRY, PLEASE!

please. please. pleasey. sadz. pleasey, thanksies

~beca


..........totally ended up moving.