okay SO allergies........not so much.

yeah uh. i have a full on sickness. how?
well i dont know. i thought it was allergies. God Fuck. and also. why dont I have friends who understandddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
ok i mean. they do but like GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
fuck face. why am I so different and at odds and ends and the world is spinning. WTF is this axis shit about. why cant you spin the regular way? crooked, the world spinning all out of whack and YOU WANT ME TO DO YOGA? i dont fucking think so. next im gonna get a book about it and a mat. and have conversations about how zen I am. Fuck that. I dont want to be zen.
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!
I hate relaxing!

I AM MAD! damn it. and i dont want to talk about it to anyone. well except one person WHO ISNT HERE. and it's not my mom so SHUT UP! im not gonna be nice anymore. im gonna chain smoke and chain drink and chain sex. and you know why? YOGA. and it's not really yoga but that is a metaphor for the reason I am acting out. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i've decided to be mad. i've decided to be mad. I wish i could change my mind.
i wish i could change my mind.
ok over it