i got my

I got my first bee-sting.

words to live by

ALWAYS LOVE.

this is the title of a Nada surf song that i like. sweet message. "always love, hate will get you every time" I guess hating is not a good thing, but always loving seems like a way vulnerable state. Of course, i guess loving doesn't mean you have to be stupid. Learning curves can be steep though. Someday, hopefully soon, my heart will catch up with my head. other Dan told me that. I call him other Dan because real Dan is my best friend.
I think it is imperative that one put ones heart into whatever one might do. otherwise, what is the point? i think it would just be a big waste to do something without heart. Although maybe I am wrong. putting ones heart into everything could get exhausting. But when I am in the studio it makes everything else i do so much better, even the way I socialize. I just get a nice case of the happies more often. I'm not a particularly hateful person, but i have felt at times that this is annoying. Sometimes I have really just wanted to hate people that werent necessarily good for me just so that I could get away from icky situations.
on occasion though people have gotten "the best" of me. Sometimes it can be kinda of a release to just hate something. hypothetically: lets say a boyfriend and a best friend were doing it behind ones back. I'm totally not against destroying something valuable of either one of theirs. From there i would just let judge Judy handle it. in reality if my best friend Dan were making out withe my boyfriend I would mostly feel really stupid for not being able to tell that either of them were gay. People can go too far though. I have been a witness to this. Being manipulative and hurting people for your own personal gain is a true character marker of someone who should be avoided. I like to believe that people can change but when I see people expressing that kind of behavior I would rather not witness their transformation into real human beings.

It is good to be smart with ones heart. I have had some friendships that weren't all that beneficial to me; which have taught me to be a stronger person. I really value people and their company and I also like to think I am valued. It is important to realize that people grow at different rates and friendships will change over time. heart and soul should be put into everything, life is too fleeting to be half-assed.
Unless, you're a serial killer and you love killing. you probably should just turn yourself into the cops in that case. I just don't think killing innocent people really helps anyone. Unless you kill rapists or people that don't like me (fuck them, umm, i mean, i love them).
damn I digressed A LOT.
i guess that means INS AND OUTS:
IN: putting love into life
OUT: hating, seriously it just makes you feel angry, frown lines, not cute!
stop drinking that hatorade and get yourself a nice bottle of love potion number nine

:slow motion

all i can think about is the impending new semester. I will be glad to be away from the T.V. and with my other form of entertainment......... PEOPLE watching. why? i dont really know. I saw a girl look at her reflection once, blow herself a kiss and then catch it. THis is usually a sport I play amongst friends.

:)

my little brother is in town from dallas. my dad is always teasing him, pumping up this bike was a fiasco. as soon as my dad said "pump faster, it's not getting hard" we couldn't stop laughing. This will be a nice way to end a challenging summer. Always a light at the end of the tunnel.
ins and outs:
out: the little black dress.
in: the little gay dress.Thanks to the cover of "the avocate" which read 'gay is the new black?' since i don't want to piss of the gay mafia, i put my little black dress back in the closet and took my little gay one out.

Bigger is out.

NOW FOR A NEW SESSION OF...
THE INS AND OUTS.

IN:2 BABY turtles

OUT: regular turtles

Throw out your old turtles or make soup with them. Whatever you do don't keep them around. If people find out you once had tacky big turtles it will ruin your reputation. 3 of my friends have a total of 6 baby turtles. WHY ARE THEY SO popular? It's because regular turtles aren't as cute. An old friend told me once"looks do matter." If it's not cute give it the boot!
Send it to a nursing home "bye bye grandma, see you at the funeral." I mailed my turtle to PETA.

You might be wonder why get 2 turtles. The answer is very simple, a lonely turtle is pathetic. Don't be a jerk get two.

Hugging My Grudge

dudes. i just got a new phone. which was so needed.
I now appreciate a nice phone. Before I didn't because well I had never had a crappy phone before. I will try not to learn lessons like this in the future by appreciating what I already have.

SO before I get to wishy washy. (very easy for me to do). I wanted to acknowledge a new trend and make sure that everyone is aware of it. I shall call this:
The INS and OUTS
IN: facebook stalking
OUT: real stalking.
so throw away your binoculars and stop calling and hanging up. You can check in on your one true infatuation on facebook. When I update my status I hope someone somewhere is updating their heart. PEACE.
p.s. can I have my underwear back now?

a new deadventure.

So I almost destroyed something electronic on accident today. It would have been my second camera that didn't make it. DUN DUN DUN

How?

It all started when I went on a bike ride to explore the Detroit suburb my father lives in. I brought the necessary things. Wallet, camera, coin purse, and water (just in case I got lost for a long time) ( i was lost for like 3 hours once). Anyhow, I felt pretty safe. Then I see it. This is the thing that almost ruined my whole trip. You wont even believe it, this thing that thwarted thoroughly, is IN FACT A STORE! JO Ann's fabric. I went nuts. I wasn't thinking i locked up my bike, i got my water bottle and went inside. As I walk around fascinated by ribbons and lace I realize just how yucky and sweaty I am. Then, I felt some sweat on my shoe. I was so disgusted by myself. But it wasn't sweat, IT WASN'T SWEAT! IT WAS WATER AND IT HAD SPILLED ALL OVER MY BAG and onto THE CAMERA. A rush of emotion was felt. Not again. not another electronic broken in the presence of my father. but this was different this camera is my dads. luckily, i had remembered what i was told when I was replacing my cell phone that had also died a liquidy death. If you let the object dry then turn it on, the motherboard wont get fried. I waited and I didn't break the camera. I will not get lectured about my reckless treatment of electronics, the laptop i spilled coffee on was a lecture enough. this was after all an accident and i handled it the right way. I have some epic angel looking out for me.

I bought this great yellow fabric to make a purse with. I can't wait! Ever since my "hey" purse got stolen I have been wanting to make a beautiful loud purse to replace it. I can't believe someone stole it. It is kind of flattering except for the part that I don't get to hear all the compliments about it anymore. FEELINGS. Feeling about purses. Who am i? oh yeah I am the girl who just bought an awesome strawberry and Lilly covered blue dress with ruffles. PRETTY!

THE THING ABOUT REBECA THINGS.

SO I wanted to create particular blog to cover all the not personal but not my art things that I want to share. The thing about me is that I love people, I love to share and for some reason I also think that maybe people want might be interested. I prefer to be very open with people it is when I am at my most sociable that i am truly comfortable.
As an ode to openness I have the perfect link, provided by my friend Luis. Now to be quite frank when I first saw this I was appalled. Even though it is a perfectly natural thing, my at times inappropriate and obscene minded nature couldn't take it. I did not watch the whole thing. I can't describe my feelings about this, except that i actually did describe them two sentences ago.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HNuhD88jajI
I"M SORRY.